If It Dont Fit, Dont Force It...

So it's been a minute since I've actually taken the time to sit down and write... I think for the most part I had an insane case of writer's block or just a very terrible case of not being able to handle the truth.  In the last few weeks I've had to do some self assessment and re-group.. Life often never happens like you would like to think it should and rolling with the punches becomes a sport of sorts.... So here I am rolling with the punches.  It has been very difficult for me to admit that I often am my own worst enemy and I am the cause of much of my heartache and discontent. It seems that I've spent a majority of my adult life forcing pieces into the wrong places. This alone has caused me the greatest amount of pain. In all of our lives there is a time and a place for everything and for everyone that enters your life there is a purpose and a reason wether it be made known to you immediately or wether you figure you out later on down the line, everything has a reason and a purpose. In my saying all of that, I have come the realization that I have been willing for so long to accept whatever has been thrown in my direction regardless of the pain or discomfort that it has or may cause me just for the sake of saying that I was in it... These relationships, wether romantic or platonic have often been extremely septic to my existence, but again for the sake of saying that I was in it has lead me to many sleepless nights and even more times of me questioning my sanity and loyalty to those that I give the most care and love to. I have yet again allowed myselft to question my worth just for that sake of saying that I was in it... I was there. As I grow and I learn, this very consistent practice has become a thorn in my side. I have decided that I am no longer willing to be a part of ANY relationship that I have questions about. I can't make anybody be anything that they don't want to be and forcing what doesn't fit only makes me feel better for a while but eventually brings me back to where I started.  So, if don't fit don't force it, let the chips fall where they may  and it is what it is.....